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  gaylolis

• Jan 18, 2020

it just dawned upon me that surrealism may be a 'subjective realism', which meant something that's the most real according to one's perspective, even though it probably made no sense to the others.

as such, i think it's the best theme to write stories on, especially if you're too lazy to research anything just to make it more 'realistic'.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 17, 2020

seven days with the ghost is really nice vn.so far!

i really like how everyone seems to go gay for the mc (especially the ghost flirting with her every night), and despite saying she's straight, she'll just end up becoming the gayest of 'em all.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 16, 2020

really satisfied with this day off.

finally able to write such a satisfying end to this arc.

man i broke down crying few times when writing it, but damn, it made me feel so good, like I finally had an outlet for release :D

i'm really glad that i decided to continue while taking my time.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 14, 2020

thinking that i'm not alone feeling this pain, makes me feel much better.

hang on there guys, i'm sure we can get through this together.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 13, 2020

i think, i always get motivation back, when i write things i cared the most.

that it's not just a story, but it's like writing my life itself. all the wishes and happy things i want to experience, and all the hardship i want to get through.

i guess i can get over if no one's going to appreciate it. as long im writing what i cared about, i have a good feeling, that i can finally see the story through the end.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 11, 2020

i wonder if people actually have imaginary readers, since the real one is almost impossible to get, and when there's one they will never be for long.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 9, 2020

when i wrote long chapters, it's more about the main characters did their own thing than advancing the plot :D

though, it's really enjoyable to do so.

where i don't think about the plot and just hammer whatever shit i had in mind.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 7, 2020

jeff pearce is an underrated genius

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  gaylolis

• Jan 4, 2020

i don't think i can write a story without eventually adding some drama and suffering to the characters...

I guess I'm going to disappoint them 'cuz I promised the story would be cozy and fluffy.

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  gaylolis

• Jan 3, 2020

this song is so good, i felt so lucky to stumble into this

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  gaylolis

• Jan 2, 2020

When I think too much about whether there's readers, it's probably time for a break.

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  gaylolis

• Dec 31, 2019

MangaDex

A website for reading manga

mangadex.org

this manga is just so damn good :DDD

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  gaylolis

• Dec 31, 2019

ah, i was feeling really burnout.

next year, i hope i can find a much better job, the one that actually have regular days off and most importantly, make me feel like im doing something worth it.

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  gaylolis

• Dec 29, 2019

Dirty Potter, Trump's Hair Story, and Popeyes' Chicken.

Wow, even a TF2 video made me learn about life.

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  gaylolis

• Dec 25, 2019

Many thanks to the one who left a review!

It gives me the spurt of motivation to finish my chapter :D

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  gaylolis

• Dec 20, 2019

I think ao3 gives me a nice change of pace.

Especially since when I write, I really hate not being able to go overdrive on lewd kinky stuff, even if the rest of the story is normal.

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  gaylolis

• Dec 18, 2019

I think one of the happy moments in my life, is when my phone was finally able to charge properly.

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  gaylolis

• Nov 11, 2019

EDIT: I decided to delete High Fantasy, I can't find any motivation to continue in this mood.

I consider to quit posting my work. I had been writing for so long, yet I don't feel that my efforts are appreciated.

It will save my sanity to just write for myself only. I really had enough of this.

When you already done the same thing for nearly a whole decade and got nothing, maybe it's just not for me.

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  gaylolis

• Nov 11, 2019

Well, it's finally done. Not what you call a proper ending, but it felt really satisfying to be able to vent all these things.

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  gaylolis

• Nov 9, 2019

i think, writing at a slower pace suits me better. i can just chill and do whatever i want, and only write when i feel like it.

thankfully i don't have readers who kept yelling at me 'when is the next chapter'.