i feel so alive after making that post. a moment of reprieve and thought from the bullshit of the earth.
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by the way b-ok[put dot here]asia has every book ever for free. in case anyone on this site wants to research. sci-hub has all scientific papers for free.
fuck it. I ain't going to prepare for competetive exams. I am going to study what i want .
I don't care about syllabus.
I don't care about anything else.
I have officially ran out of patience for the bullshit of the world .
From now on i am just going to learn i can't do bullshit for exams.
One habbit was cataloguing my thoughts by the time and topic.
and then analyzing those thoughts.
So i might know what i am thinking about.
Maybe try to think psychologically why i think that.
Why do i care about this topic i was thinking about. What i spent my last hour doing . How productive was that line of thought and if i am repeating thoughts.
Ok i am just gonna Google how to get rid of addiction to daydreaming and internet and actually be productive
Someone neeeds to remind me this everyday. Also stress is necessary and
Without stress brain would only do things which would conserve energy and not care about future
Some people are destined for greatness. Whether they actually get there is another story. A Child Prodigy may have an innate talent in something such as science or art, but despite that reservoir of potential by the time they should be at their peak they are instead living the life of a normal person, if not doing much worse. I
I saw the results and
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I can't believe it actually worked. Wow. Just studying once at 8PM worked. I went like even if i have to stay awake all night i would study and it somehow worked.
} has been retracted.being productive is hard
procrastination is deadly.
I won't ever use internet before completing questions. or for every hour i used i will delete 20 notes. if i don't do 20 questions {each sub} everyday by 4:30PM.
You can't control yourself for an hour but you can control yourself for one minute to delete notes. make it a habbit.
My main defense when wasting time is i don't care about future. So only way to get rid of it is by actually harming things i care about.
Also memorizing 1 one formula and techniques across a week.
calculate at what rate i will have to do questions to get it done in a year. with 8 months to spare.
then do those questions everyday
There is a very strong bias when using internet against study. It completly overhelmds logic and personality. It is a short change to my personality.
God damm. My degradation is worse than rickity crickets degradation from the show.
Lesson learned don't use social media like discord.
Like going from
Oh wow I complete half the syllabus before session begins to
Oh wow final exams have began and the only syllabus completed is the one I started before session.
Well
Something like this.
I would have been sad but well somehow I am still cheery.
I was right tomorrow is exam and I am opening organic chemistry for first time in months. No online videos watched.
Paying for school is a waste should have just saved money to move to Finland and beg on streets. 3rd world problems. Even better should have just became a refugee.
Edit:if I was born in Finland I would have went to a good university and got good job without paying anything.
Beggars probably have more social mobility there upper middle class here
Status:totally fucked.
Will i learn anything.
Nah.
Proof: i am updating my status here
project memory remember what you thought yesterday and
read
realization of the year/the file in it .txt
art attack no flowery bullshit. chems. yugo senki. haven't found anything in months. slow death. well slow death both ways but .
formal logic. listing assumptions actually thinking not going just by emotions and inutions and enjoying the release and calling it knowledge.
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