Maybe it's the strong emotions that get me excited? I feel just as excited writing psychological suffering as I do when reading climax scenes in books. That tension is oh so sweet or something?
It's not all bad though. If some of my characters can more or less succeed, then the scars they will carry for the rest of their lives (if they are still alive) will be equivalent exchange. I just want them to be traumatically affected is all. Because life is fucking hard, and my characters lives are harder! Thus what they endure must be proportional to their struggle!
Hahahaa, I have done that actually. Created an alter and talked to myself when there's not enough people around. lol But I'm certifiably insane. (∩ᄑ_ᄑ)⊃━☆゚*・。*・:≡( ε:)