Every time I post a new chapter I always think, "This is the best chapter ever." But once I do a reading myself to fix some grammar and flow mistakes I think, "This is horrible writing. Why am I even alive?"
I tend to accept my writing is terrible on the get-go but when I re-read something I wrote and wonder if I should just delete it forever... there is this single scene or one punchline to a joke, or a cool character flexing scene I go, "Everything else is bad, but 'that' i like THAT!"
imagine waking up one day to an open cavity in your chest just to see a living book constructed out of your innards rising from the remains of your lungs as your nurtre had grant it life and sentience