I figured as such, since this site's more geared to Lit-RPG and isekai and other anime-themed stories. The kind of poetry I write is narrative horror poetry, and that in itself is niche even in the poetry community in general.
I'll just post an excerpt of one of my horror poems just to give you taste of it:
1. The Scroll
I am alone, cut off from all the things
That used to bring me joy; I am a shell
Of what I was, a husk of bitter stings
That shock each beating pulse! This hell
Of my own mind, of my own making, still
Provides the burning ember of creation
Inside this haunted mind. I take this quill
And dip it in the blood of my damnation
And write the sentence of my penance here
Upon this very scroll you’re reading now;
I know you’re reading this, but do not fear,
For I’ll be with you to the end somehow,
Even as day shall bleed to endless night
That snuffs the flame of courage into fright . . .
I'll just post an excerpt of one of my horror poems just to give you taste of it:
1. The Scroll
I am alone, cut off from all the things
That used to bring me joy; I am a shell
Of what I was, a husk of bitter stings
That shock each beating pulse! This hell
Of my own mind, of my own making, still
Provides the burning ember of creation
Inside this haunted mind. I take this quill
And dip it in the blood of my damnation
And write the sentence of my penance here
Upon this very scroll you’re reading now;
I know you’re reading this, but do not fear,
For I’ll be with you to the end somehow,
Even as day shall bleed to endless night
That snuffs the flame of courage into fright . . .
All this poety love is making me wonder if I can find the stuff I wrote ages ago. Hmmm...
I think this one is from 2004 if I'm reading my file name right:
Slowly I gain courage and strength.
As the pain of the past flows out,
and the well of sadness begins to run dry.
New feelings begin to surface,
things I hadn't felt before.
Slowly I begin to uncover my true self,
and what I find is not the end of a journey,
but the beginning of a new one.
... wow that is old. Found something older by a few months, but it's a bit long.
What is this urge?!?!
What is it I feel a need to do?
What is this feeling in my head. Something is missing. Something I need to do.
Something is missing, something I need to do.
Something lurks in the back of my head.
Something I need to do.
Something is bugging me.
Something is asking for a favor.
Something is driving me mad.
Something in the back of my head.
I don't know
I don't know
It is dring me crazy.
It is driving me nuts.
It is asking for something, but I don't know what.
I need to do something, but I don't know what.
I need something, but I don't know what.
I don't even know if it is something I can get, or if it is just a hope or dream.
Driving me nuts.
Driving me insane,
driving me crazy,
driving me mad.
Driving me to type in an effort to get it out.
What is driving me? What am I feeling?
What is making me do this?
Why do I feel this way?
What is happening inside my head that makes me feel so?
Why is this happening? What is it?
What is waking up inside my head?
Lurking, working doing something, I know not what.
Lurking, working in my head.
Changing things around messing up my head.
Changing things around making new things work and old things stop.
Skills are going away and yet new ones are forming.
Lost magic. New power.
Something I need. Something I don't. I don't know.
I know nothing.
This feeling in the back of my head.
It won't go away, it drives me to act.
I can't seem to act fast enough or maybe it just isn't right.
Something I do needs to be done, but something is missing.
Something extra is needed, something extra I don't have.
I need something, I know not what.
I need something, I know not what.
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel the way I do?
Why must I type?
What is it doing?
What is being expressed?
What do I need?
Somehting is needed, but I know not what.
Something is needed, but I know not what.
How do I get it, how do I get it.
How do I get it when I know it not.
How can I help myself when I know not what I need?
How can I help myself when I know not what I need?
How can anyone help me, when they know not what I need?
Something is needed, but I know not what.
Something is needed, but I know not what.
What do I need?
What do I need?
It seems I need to at least try to obtain it.
The effort alone helps a little, but it is not enough.
What do I need?
What do I need?
What can I do to help myself?
What can I do?
Something is needed, but I know not what
something is needed, but I know not what.
What do I need? I wish to know,
I wish to get what I need so it will stop
The madness, the need it drives me crazy.
I think I need acknowledgement.
I need to know I exist.
I need to know I matter.
I need to know that I mean something to this world.
I need to know what I have done.
I need to know if my actions have been successful.
I need to know if I matter.
I need to know if I have accomplished anything.
I need to know if all my efforts have been for waste,
or if I have been doing the right thing.
I need to know ...
... now I'm wondering if I should make a poetry pile for my old stuff now that I've found it. There's quite a bit, most of it similar to this one. I'd describe it as soul searching. Learning about myself by writing about myself. I think that first one I posted at the top is the last one I wrote.
All this poety love is making me wonder if I can find the stuff I wrote ages ago. Hmmm...
I think this one is from 2004 if I'm reading my file name right:
Slowly I gain courage and strength.
As the pain of the past flows out,
and the well of sadness begins to run dry.
New feelings begin to surface,
things I hadn't felt before.
Slowly I begin to uncover my true self,
and what I find is not the end of a journey,
but the beginning of a new one.
... wow that is old. Found something older by a few months, but it's a bit long.
What is this urge?!?!
What is it I feel a need to do?
What is this feeling in my head. Something is missing. Something I need to do.
Something is missing, something I need to do.
Something lurks in the back of my head.
Something I need to do.
Something is bugging me.
Something is asking for a favor.
Something is driving me mad.
Something in the back of my head.
I don't know
I don't know
It is dring me crazy.
It is driving me nuts.
It is asking for something, but I don't know what.
I need to do something, but I don't know what.
I need something, but I don't know what.
I don't even know if it is something I can get, or if it is just a hope or dream.
Driving me nuts.
Driving me insane,
driving me crazy,
driving me mad.
Driving me to type in an effort to get it out.
What is driving me? What am I feeling?
What is making me do this?
Why do I feel this way?
What is happening inside my head that makes me feel so?
Why is this happening? What is it?
What is waking up inside my head?
Lurking, working doing something, I know not what.
Lurking, working in my head.
Changing things around messing up my head.
Changing things around making new things work and old things stop.
Skills are going away and yet new ones are forming.
Lost magic. New power.
Something I need. Something I don't. I don't know.
I know nothing.
This feeling in the back of my head.
It won't go away, it drives me to act.
I can't seem to act fast enough or maybe it just isn't right.
Something I do needs to be done, but something is missing.
Something extra is needed, something extra I don't have.
I need something, I know not what.
I need something, I know not what.
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel the way I do?
Why must I type?
What is it doing?
What is being expressed?
What do I need?
Somehting is needed, but I know not what.
Something is needed, but I know not what.
How do I get it, how do I get it.
How do I get it when I know it not.
How can I help myself when I know not what I need?
How can I help myself when I know not what I need?
How can anyone help me, when they know not what I need?
Something is needed, but I know not what.
Something is needed, but I know not what.
What do I need?
What do I need?
It seems I need to at least try to obtain it.
The effort alone helps a little, but it is not enough.
What do I need?
What do I need?
What can I do to help myself?
What can I do?
Something is needed, but I know not what
something is needed, but I know not what.
What do I need? I wish to know,
I wish to get what I need so it will stop
The madness, the need it drives me crazy.
I think I need acknowledgement.
I need to know I exist.
I need to know I matter.
I need to know that I mean something to this world.
I need to know what I have done.
I need to know if my actions have been successful.
I need to know if I matter.
I need to know if I have accomplished anything.
I need to know if all my efforts have been for waste,
or if I have been doing the right thing.
I need to know ...
... now I'm wondering if I should make a poetry pile for my old stuff now that I've found it. There's quite a bit, most of it similar to this one. I'd describe it as soul searching. Learning about myself by writing about myself. I think that first one I posted at the top is the last one I wrote.
Went through my old diary files, had to rename a bunch of them to get it to sort properly (I'd kept changing how I did the dates). Ended up finding more than I thought I would.
My Poetry Pile. Hope you enjoy it. A lot of it is tiny.
