Vhail
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Here is my contribution. Sorry for the mistakes, english is not my mother language.
Another day at school, another monotonous walk back home with no one to welcome me when I arrive. Only a heavy silence solely disturbs by the buzz of some damn insects that always manage to sneak into my sanctuary using, god knows which hidden passageway I didn’t manage to close. I climb to my room and sit in front of my desk, grabbing a piece of paper and my drawing tools. Before last week I would have drawn some fantasy monsters, other worlds landscape or mythical races such as elves, dwarfs and so on but not anymore.
Now I have the perfect subject filling every criterion for my own fantasy. Lewd fantasy even. She is a girl like me, same school year and also following the same art degree as me. The first time I saw her, the first day in university, I knew she was the one. Before her, all I was feeling was an endless emptiness in my heart. Even the few “friends”, more like people that were willing to talk to me if you ask me, couldn’t be compare to a sand grain in this emotional void I was.
But she filled that void all by herself. I spend the first day at school looking at her, engraving every detail about her I can find in my memory. That’s crazy how much you can learn from a person just by paying attention to them. By the end of the day, I knew that she put her hair back behind her left her when she was nervous, that she was biting her inferior lips when she was annoyed by someone and all her other habits.
The features of her face, the color of her eyes and hairs were all fix in my memory forever and by the passing days, drawn on several sheets of paper that were now pinned on the walls of my bedroom. I would soon need to use the walls of the other room of my house since those ones were almost filled out.
I now barely listen in classes, spending my time looking at my beloved Valentia. What a beautiful name. I was happy just by looking at her but soon, or rather at every break, I got annoyed by all the people assembling around her. Who do they think they were? Tainting my precious one with their fake feeling, only wanting to win favors from her, with their fake smiling and sweet venomous words. I can't allow that!
Maybe it was jealousy directed to all those people that could freely talk to her … But after thinking a lot about it I realized that it was fear to lose her and envy to possess her. Drawing her was not enough anymore. Watching her all day long couldn’t fill my burning desire to possess her. I wanted the real one! The one that I could cuddle with, find consolation when sad. The one that I could pet, love and that would chase away the emotion void I was trapped in.
No one would be able to take her away from me. And if I need to get rid of those damn insects to win her so be it. They don’t deserve her anyway.
But for now, let put this knew drawing somewhere, tomorrow will be the beginning of the path leading me and her to eternal happiness.
Another day at school, another monotonous walk back home with no one to welcome me when I arrive. Only a heavy silence solely disturbs by the buzz of some damn insects that always manage to sneak into my sanctuary using, god knows which hidden passageway I didn’t manage to close. I climb to my room and sit in front of my desk, grabbing a piece of paper and my drawing tools. Before last week I would have drawn some fantasy monsters, other worlds landscape or mythical races such as elves, dwarfs and so on but not anymore.
Now I have the perfect subject filling every criterion for my own fantasy. Lewd fantasy even. She is a girl like me, same school year and also following the same art degree as me. The first time I saw her, the first day in university, I knew she was the one. Before her, all I was feeling was an endless emptiness in my heart. Even the few “friends”, more like people that were willing to talk to me if you ask me, couldn’t be compare to a sand grain in this emotional void I was.
But she filled that void all by herself. I spend the first day at school looking at her, engraving every detail about her I can find in my memory. That’s crazy how much you can learn from a person just by paying attention to them. By the end of the day, I knew that she put her hair back behind her left her when she was nervous, that she was biting her inferior lips when she was annoyed by someone and all her other habits.
The features of her face, the color of her eyes and hairs were all fix in my memory forever and by the passing days, drawn on several sheets of paper that were now pinned on the walls of my bedroom. I would soon need to use the walls of the other room of my house since those ones were almost filled out.
I now barely listen in classes, spending my time looking at my beloved Valentia. What a beautiful name. I was happy just by looking at her but soon, or rather at every break, I got annoyed by all the people assembling around her. Who do they think they were? Tainting my precious one with their fake feeling, only wanting to win favors from her, with their fake smiling and sweet venomous words. I can't allow that!
Maybe it was jealousy directed to all those people that could freely talk to her … But after thinking a lot about it I realized that it was fear to lose her and envy to possess her. Drawing her was not enough anymore. Watching her all day long couldn’t fill my burning desire to possess her. I wanted the real one! The one that I could cuddle with, find consolation when sad. The one that I could pet, love and that would chase away the emotion void I was trapped in.
No one would be able to take her away from me. And if I need to get rid of those damn insects to win her so be it. They don’t deserve her anyway.
But for now, let put this knew drawing somewhere, tomorrow will be the beginning of the path leading me and her to eternal happiness.