Your character is at a gun point
He will die, there is no turning back from now
Yet, it is of utmost importance that before dying, he gives a long monologue about this girl he met when he was a kid
But like, the dude is going to die! DIE! Why is he talking about some random girl?
That too for 5 minutes!
You are at gunpoint! You can't form words properly!
Yet, it is of utmost importance that your character gives a 10 minute speech about this girl he met 20 years ago
ahem. I can write this really really well.
Finally. It's not worth dying over. Well nothing is worth dying over but here i am anyway. Fucked over by fellow humans and laughing gods of cities alike. I lay here dying .alone. well i have lived my whole life alone anyway there would have no point in keeping me company in death anyway.
Tears roll down my cheeks but i am laughing all the same.
Will this mean i would be like gods too. They laugh at me and I am laughing so this must be my apotheosis.
*chuckles*
Yeah as if.
What did i even achieve in life. Not the dreams people smothered me by. No not that. The dreams i had of my own. Let's see I achieved a part of one dream.
No it's not the time to list my accomplishments in face of death and attempt to make myself appear bigger like a small animal. I have done that a lot ,alone with myself and in front of others. Got treated like a animal too.
That's not genuine. That's just me dying as miserably as i lived,
*chuckles again*
What's a man bleeding to death in vain supposed to think of anyway.
I guess. Examine my life . Why.
.
.
.
Cause i want to .
So to all the laughing gods hear my laughter as well.
ouch
So there was a girl. Cute 5,5. A petite figure.Black hair Brown eyes. Pixe cut. It wasn't something great. No star crossed lovers. No childhood best friend. No girls of my dreams.
Just a girl who listened to me once a while and then spoke her heart out when she felt like it.
I felt a strange aura of nervousness and being at ease around her.
Weird. How two such contradictory things happen can at once but they happened all the same.
She wasn't perfect . She just was and I found her cute. Maybe she did find me cute too.
No that's unlikely it's me just trying to make metallic taste of death more palatable and sweeter to swallow.
Someone you could talk with and get the reply.
"Hey i think so too. Same honestly"
instead of the usual bored face of indifference and a wait to change the topic of conversation to other topics.
Can't believe that just being born a girl and the fact that she agreed with me and understood a part of me could engrave her so deep in my soul.
That she's all i could think of as i die. Even after all this time.
*a single tear washes down from his left eye*
.
.
.
*Laughs madly*
I remember. Eureka.
She used me too.
.
She saw my face. She saw me blushing. Spotted the loneliness inside me.
Probably thought of me as a easy target to do her homework for her.
A brother . What bullshit.
Though then again she genuinely tell me her secrets.
Maybe it's the taste of metal and lead in my brain which is poisoning my sweet memories .
No no. That can't be right. She did seem genuine.
I guess i never really lived. or if i did I can't remember.
I have been dead for so long that any piece of happiness the world may have shown just looked either worthless or just fake.
I stooped seeing the world with wonder and the world changed to fit my view of it.
Why does friendship and helping each other just seem like being used to me.
Why do my memories rot. Why does love and hope fade away.
Just to look at the world with innocence and be greeted with a innocent world in return where people are genuine and where people do care instead of the apathy and laughter.
I can't move.
huh . well there is one thing i can do. It has been done everywhere and doesn't produce any effect whatsoever.
but
eh
it is funny.
and maybe i too would be a god if I laugh.
Lifts up his left hand .
Holds up fist to air.
slowly opens hands
Points up a middle to the north direction.
*Laughs*
I am not going to die crying of regret.
I won't ask for the love I did not receive.
I have only emotion now.
child like curiosity.
Even if i die my thirst would keep my corpse walking.
I would know with certainty what happens after death.
I exist and in a few moments i would know that i do not exist. I would know two things for certain instead of just knowing one thing.
So I laugh.
Gods won't it be funny if the only believe i have , in cold science. Also breaks down as a fitting end to this tragic comedy.
Wrong about everything in life.
Huh Gods.
Won't it be funny if i am even wrong about the fact that oblivion awaits after death.
Tragedy isn't complete or as incomplete without it.
Weather I live or die. I am either right about oblivion after death or I live.
A win win situation. My curiosity will be satisfied and no one can take it away from me. My death doesn't matter anymore.
The world laughed. The tragedy shall be incomplete.
His curiosity which even overtook his desire to live shall not be satisfied.
The gods laughed.
A
Man lives for the first time .
For he wasn't alive in his first life.