Noks

Alright, about me:

Let me tell you a true tale about me.

I'm a long time reader and lurker for years. I like reading, and i mean really really love reading. I scoured the internet for novels, even the hidden one's, it's like a drug to me. Most of the time, i only find trash, but there are those moments that i find Jackpot, when i do i will binge read the shit out of it like a fucking drug addict starved on cocaine.

It is also the reason why i stopped watching anime. Most of them, at-least the one's i read, is an adapted form from novels or manga anyway. The MC in harem genre's is always indecisive in the end, or only chose one instead of all. At-least in novels, i can find an ending i want, with the MC ends up with everyone.

Reading also bought me to the attention of NTR, one of the most controversial genre of all. Wars have been fought, heavy insults have been thrown, even mothers have been included in the list of casualty. It amazed me to no end that no other genre have provoked so much emotion and passion like this have, and i know why. Cheating is a touchy subject, most people fucking hate it to happen to them. It is devastating, specially when the one you trust and love did that to you.

So, with my boredom, i steeled my heart and prepared for the worst. I made sure to never get connected to any of the characters in the novel. I was underestimating NTR too much. The pain and agony it bought me, changed me inside. I returned a broken man, both in pain and in agony. I came back feeling that i got stabbed in the heart.

Reading NTR destroyed some part of me, and for a time, it devastated me, made me depressed for days. I was already not good with women, but doing doing this crushed any chance i have. The experience made me paranoid as fuck with a PTSD on women. I should never have done it, but what's done is done. I will probably never get married now.

Anyway, the experience i had with NTR might have broken me, but it also made me resistant to NTR. As they say, what doesn't kill you will made you stronger. I think that's what happened to me because i can read ntr now, i still sometime's feel pain inside. But now, i can take it a little better.

I now have a better view on why people like NTR. Do not be mistaken about me, i still don't like the genre, but i have come to some form of understanding why they like it. Let me tell you what i think.

-Some like's rape.

-Some love it because it's a taboo and forbidden.

-Some have a dark and deep desire to fuck married women.

-Some of them are machoist and like the pain it give's them.

-Some of them are sadist and like the pain and turmoil the MC feel.

-Some of them loves the feel of an adrenaline rush it give's and are horny reading it.

-Some of them imagine they are the one's doing the cuckolding. (Probably hates Beta MC)

I do not condemn them, nor do i accept them. I still don't like reading NTR , they are probably somewhat broken inside. NTR, is probably one of those genre that give's them some sort of excitement in their life. But i have come to some understanding with them. It's better to just leave them alone on their fetish and move on.