It was a fine day, I got a good score on a test (probably full score) and was overall excited to write when I get online
Then I come home to my family and it all changed
translating two chapters back to back for two different story
On one chapter, a heartbreaking betrayal happened
On the other, an onee-san with great personality is dead
I remember vaguely a movie scene, black and white, a man is eating with his mother, who asks why he's not married, suggesting him to go to the ball, after trying to brush it off, he broke down.
The masculine urge to just walk out of the house with a few coats and the little money I have left, buy a plane ticket to Iceland, pet a horse, hike and die on a random mountain, or get lucky with a job and a place to sleep, day to day working (I don't speak Icelandic)
Life gives birth to us as disadvantaged pieces of land,
Mom, last month... Dad lost his job!
Little child! I wait for you at the end of the white line.
I will go to a peaceful place and wash away the sun
For the bright sky... and then the rain, drop by drop
For the scars on our skin to sway with the music.
I never understood the point of having a gf or bf, rather than practicing mistakes for marriage to come. But then I realize, I don't have anyone in my life I can let my heart out to when I want to sing a song but my singing is extremely bad and they won't laugh at me, even if they did because of my performance I wouldn't feel bad.