Sylver
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I'm expecting to get judged, criticized, maybe even shamed. It's a bit of a touchy subject and I don't expect everyone to understand it. These are my thoughts and feelings, so I apologize if I offend or upset anyone here.
TL,DR; Feedback and progress isn't developing to how I'd like, and I'm contemplating between taking a break or moving on.
The story I'm writing is about 61 chapters in depth so far, I would guess that Act 1 ends somewhere between 3 - 5 chapters. I have an outline for Act 2 and Act 3, and furthermore, my story is already finished so I've been rewriting it as a second draft. It's been great seeing a new and improved Act 1, I wanted to go for a more serious approach because the first draft was heavily focused on smut.
I wanted to change direction and build a new world, with believable characters that feel real. I wanted to have a fantasy story with mature themes and character growth, while also having fun with the world building such as the lore, different/new species, and I even had fun creating a neat little magic system as well.
I think what's difficult to realize is that no one is as invested into this story as I am, and that kinda bites. It bites because writing is a hobby and a passion of mine, it's something I learned to do as an escape and a form of progressing in something I liked. I've been writing for 5 years, worked on numerous stories, experimented with different genres.
Most importantly, I wrote because I had creativity, I had ambition, I wanted to make stories that I felt were special or unique, and I wanted to entertain the readers.
And I have, for a time. I was on a different website for 4 years give or take, it was difficult but I did fairly well. I left the site because I wanted to start over with my new experience, since that website included a lot of stories from when I first started, with cringe writing and funny tropes. I like reading them because it shows me how far I've improved over the years haha!
But, this is where the criticism might start, I'm just not receiving as much progress as I had hoped for.
And I'm not too sure why, is it my writing? The ideas? The characters? Is it the blurry cover art image? The introduction chapter? The way the story progresses, or perhaps the smut?
I've no clue x) and frankly, it's starting to stress me out. This past weekend, I couldn't write because I just felt defeated. I kept thinking what was the point, when the only comments I would receive were mostly from two friends? And then I realized that those two friends were the main ones providing the feedback and likes that kept me adding new chapters.
And it was like this terrible realization because the image was broken, and now I realize that not many people have been following the story for nearly 10 chapters now. And that really sucks, you know? It sucks because it is what it is, because some stories just don't make it due to bad luck. Because maybe it's not my writing, or my characters, or my premise, the setting, maybe I did everything well and it just isn't what people are looking for. And I can't change that.
So, I think I'll push forward to finish act 1 of the story. After that, I don't know. I might take an extended break to compose myself and see if the story catches any new readers. Or I might just move on to a different website and try my luck there.
I've no complaints about Scribblehub or the community, you guys have been really welcoming and supportive and that's likely what I'll miss the most if I do leave. I wrote this post because it's the product of these thoughts culminating in my head for a few weeks now, and it's gotten to the point where I'm losing the drive to write more chapters. There's just no audience for it, there's some views but it's nearly invisible when there's so little comments and feedback. You guys did everything well, it's just me who's not doing so hot as of now.
Maybe I'm being selfish, maybe I'm being manipulative, I don't know and I hope it's neither of those things.
A lot have said to me that you shouldn't write for the views or recognition because it's a codependent cycle where you'll find yourself wanting more and more and it just doesn't end well. That you should write because you enjoy it, not because others like your work. And that is true, but I see it in this way: when a story writer gets their show in the air or on streaming but very few people watch it, there's nothing they can do besides to drop it, because it's not making enough revenue or feedback as they had hoped.
And it's similar here, I aim to write because I enjoy it and I want others to enjoy what I have to share.
Anyway, that's all. My next chapter is due tomorrow, I've had it saved as a draft for some time. I just needed to share what's been bothering me for a while now. I'm sorry if I upset some if you guys or if this post was more of an eye roll, but I appreciate you guys for taking the time to read it.
I'm going to go lie down for now.
Thank you.
TL,DR; Feedback and progress isn't developing to how I'd like, and I'm contemplating between taking a break or moving on.
The story I'm writing is about 61 chapters in depth so far, I would guess that Act 1 ends somewhere between 3 - 5 chapters. I have an outline for Act 2 and Act 3, and furthermore, my story is already finished so I've been rewriting it as a second draft. It's been great seeing a new and improved Act 1, I wanted to go for a more serious approach because the first draft was heavily focused on smut.
I wanted to change direction and build a new world, with believable characters that feel real. I wanted to have a fantasy story with mature themes and character growth, while also having fun with the world building such as the lore, different/new species, and I even had fun creating a neat little magic system as well.
I think what's difficult to realize is that no one is as invested into this story as I am, and that kinda bites. It bites because writing is a hobby and a passion of mine, it's something I learned to do as an escape and a form of progressing in something I liked. I've been writing for 5 years, worked on numerous stories, experimented with different genres.
Most importantly, I wrote because I had creativity, I had ambition, I wanted to make stories that I felt were special or unique, and I wanted to entertain the readers.
And I have, for a time. I was on a different website for 4 years give or take, it was difficult but I did fairly well. I left the site because I wanted to start over with my new experience, since that website included a lot of stories from when I first started, with cringe writing and funny tropes. I like reading them because it shows me how far I've improved over the years haha!
But, this is where the criticism might start, I'm just not receiving as much progress as I had hoped for.
And I'm not too sure why, is it my writing? The ideas? The characters? Is it the blurry cover art image? The introduction chapter? The way the story progresses, or perhaps the smut?
I've no clue x) and frankly, it's starting to stress me out. This past weekend, I couldn't write because I just felt defeated. I kept thinking what was the point, when the only comments I would receive were mostly from two friends? And then I realized that those two friends were the main ones providing the feedback and likes that kept me adding new chapters.
And it was like this terrible realization because the image was broken, and now I realize that not many people have been following the story for nearly 10 chapters now. And that really sucks, you know? It sucks because it is what it is, because some stories just don't make it due to bad luck. Because maybe it's not my writing, or my characters, or my premise, the setting, maybe I did everything well and it just isn't what people are looking for. And I can't change that.
So, I think I'll push forward to finish act 1 of the story. After that, I don't know. I might take an extended break to compose myself and see if the story catches any new readers. Or I might just move on to a different website and try my luck there.
I've no complaints about Scribblehub or the community, you guys have been really welcoming and supportive and that's likely what I'll miss the most if I do leave. I wrote this post because it's the product of these thoughts culminating in my head for a few weeks now, and it's gotten to the point where I'm losing the drive to write more chapters. There's just no audience for it, there's some views but it's nearly invisible when there's so little comments and feedback. You guys did everything well, it's just me who's not doing so hot as of now.
Maybe I'm being selfish, maybe I'm being manipulative, I don't know and I hope it's neither of those things.
A lot have said to me that you shouldn't write for the views or recognition because it's a codependent cycle where you'll find yourself wanting more and more and it just doesn't end well. That you should write because you enjoy it, not because others like your work. And that is true, but I see it in this way: when a story writer gets their show in the air or on streaming but very few people watch it, there's nothing they can do besides to drop it, because it's not making enough revenue or feedback as they had hoped.
And it's similar here, I aim to write because I enjoy it and I want others to enjoy what I have to share.
Anyway, that's all. My next chapter is due tomorrow, I've had it saved as a draft for some time. I just needed to share what's been bothering me for a while now. I'm sorry if I upset some if you guys or if this post was more of an eye roll, but I appreciate you guys for taking the time to read it.
I'm going to go lie down for now.
Thank you.