So_Indecisive
Primordial sin of Sloth
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Honestly at some point in our lives we reach certain crossroads or checkpoints, that can drastically alter and shape our perception and even lead you to become an entirely different person than you were just moments ago.
For me that would be on a certain day when I was in JSS3( basically ninth grade).
That day I was scurrying around different rooms in the hostel, checking if anyone had a golden bowtie I could borrow for my yearbook picture. After walking aimlessly for some minutes I stumbled upon a room filled with my classmates. It seemed the seniors weren't around and the place was stuffy so I really didn't want to waste my time there as I was really tired and just wanted to have this picture taken so I could go to sleep. Now I wasn't very popular, I was fat, wasn't very clean and didn't have many friends at that time. So you beat believe I was getting bullied most of the time, looking back on it it's hilarious that I found 13 year old brats terrifying but I did get beat up sometimes, this occasion was another where I was probably going to get beat up and in a very humiliating manner to boot.
One of my classmates P sitting on the top bunk in the room feeling all high and mighty proposed to I an absolutely funny idea that had come to his mind at the moment. "HEY I why don't you beat up So_indecisive and I'll give you the turkey from my meal tonight". Honestly you'd think this guy even as stupid as he was to have at least a tiny shred of self respect and choose not to be commanded by someone else in the same age group for a piece of meat(are you a goddamn dog I) but he was quickly onboard with the idea.
Like I said it was a very humiliating thing. All those boys watching from their beds with not even one person stepping out to tell them to stop. Their taunting smiles and smug faces as they put me on the spot like that making me a gladiator in a ring(is there an adage for that). Yeah it made me angry, levels of anger I had never reached before came surging in and then I just snapped. One thing I was still walking towards me slowly taunting me while smiling and then the next thing he knew his face was planted on the metal door of the room.
From JSS1-3( 7TH TO 9TH GRADE) I had been bullied a lot by a lot of people. I was very shy and disliked confrontation and I suffered from it. But when I slammed I's face into that door and when I saw him bleeding from his nose, I felt something dark stirring in me and I slammed his head a couple more times into the door for good measure. When he managed to get his head out of my grip and started throwing punches I responded with equal fervour. It hurt throwing punches at the head instead of somewhere soft like the stomach but I was barely feeling it as adrenaline coursed through my system.
The next thing I knew he was on the floor as I used my substantial weight to pin him to the ground( I was a very chunky monkey back then okay
) and I was just wailing on him.
At this point the bastards who had since been cheering for the fight to start and watching from their pedestals had already long since stopped cheering( I'm sure they didn't expect blood to start flying everywhere like that) and were quickly upon me trying to stop the fight. They eventually managed to get me off him as well as push me out of the room but I didn't care because my heart was pounding, I couldn't feel the pain just excitement. I had never in my life felt as powerful as I did in that moment, seeing someone who caused me fear being so small and helpless in my hands made me giddy. Throughout the year I'd get into fights with many people both classmates and seniors who were older, taller and tougher than me.
Looking back it was something unimaginable for the me prior to this getting into any conflict at all. Even to this day I don't think anyone can threaten me with physical harm unless they pull out a gun(honestly if you see a gun just apologise it ain't worth your life).
So what are some defining moments in your life and how have they shaped the you today.
For me that would be on a certain day when I was in JSS3( basically ninth grade).
That day I was scurrying around different rooms in the hostel, checking if anyone had a golden bowtie I could borrow for my yearbook picture. After walking aimlessly for some minutes I stumbled upon a room filled with my classmates. It seemed the seniors weren't around and the place was stuffy so I really didn't want to waste my time there as I was really tired and just wanted to have this picture taken so I could go to sleep. Now I wasn't very popular, I was fat, wasn't very clean and didn't have many friends at that time. So you beat believe I was getting bullied most of the time, looking back on it it's hilarious that I found 13 year old brats terrifying but I did get beat up sometimes, this occasion was another where I was probably going to get beat up and in a very humiliating manner to boot.
One of my classmates P sitting on the top bunk in the room feeling all high and mighty proposed to I an absolutely funny idea that had come to his mind at the moment. "HEY I why don't you beat up So_indecisive and I'll give you the turkey from my meal tonight". Honestly you'd think this guy even as stupid as he was to have at least a tiny shred of self respect and choose not to be commanded by someone else in the same age group for a piece of meat(are you a goddamn dog I) but he was quickly onboard with the idea.
Like I said it was a very humiliating thing. All those boys watching from their beds with not even one person stepping out to tell them to stop. Their taunting smiles and smug faces as they put me on the spot like that making me a gladiator in a ring(is there an adage for that). Yeah it made me angry, levels of anger I had never reached before came surging in and then I just snapped. One thing I was still walking towards me slowly taunting me while smiling and then the next thing he knew his face was planted on the metal door of the room.
From JSS1-3( 7TH TO 9TH GRADE) I had been bullied a lot by a lot of people. I was very shy and disliked confrontation and I suffered from it. But when I slammed I's face into that door and when I saw him bleeding from his nose, I felt something dark stirring in me and I slammed his head a couple more times into the door for good measure. When he managed to get his head out of my grip and started throwing punches I responded with equal fervour. It hurt throwing punches at the head instead of somewhere soft like the stomach but I was barely feeling it as adrenaline coursed through my system.
The next thing I knew he was on the floor as I used my substantial weight to pin him to the ground( I was a very chunky monkey back then okay
) and I was just wailing on him.At this point the bastards who had since been cheering for the fight to start and watching from their pedestals had already long since stopped cheering( I'm sure they didn't expect blood to start flying everywhere like that) and were quickly upon me trying to stop the fight. They eventually managed to get me off him as well as push me out of the room but I didn't care because my heart was pounding, I couldn't feel the pain just excitement. I had never in my life felt as powerful as I did in that moment, seeing someone who caused me fear being so small and helpless in my hands made me giddy. Throughout the year I'd get into fights with many people both classmates and seniors who were older, taller and tougher than me.
Looking back it was something unimaginable for the me prior to this getting into any conflict at all. Even to this day I don't think anyone can threaten me with physical harm unless they pull out a gun(honestly if you see a gun just apologise it ain't worth your life).
So what are some defining moments in your life and how have they shaped the you today.
