The reason for why I write is because I want to change how people view the world and the people around them through my stories and characters.
Maybe help readers come to terms with existentialism using my fictional stories for example.
bro i am basically writing something which is similar to this but the protagonist is somewhat well adjusted. There is no symbolism or anything .
Well there are two themes though. One is absurdism and other is self control and following logic. Somewhat questioning reality.
The basic plot is
The protagonist just talks with a girl in a direct fashion about stuff he likes while exploring the world. He goes through various cities where people follow different philosophies.
there is protagonist refusal to take the world seriously no matter what which gives story comedy tag.
Story begins with (26 year old)guy brooding about how bad life is when he read daily news letter and found out that proton decay has been observed and readings are similar to what string theory predicts.
(he was against string theory and had bet 10,000$ that it would never be proven right)
He thinks about how bad his life is . He thinks i am leaving physics now and going full on hedonist.
He asks his friend where could he buy weed
His friend says
"Dude, this happens to you atleast once a month. You sure wanna risk a addiction they mix cocaine with weed now a days"
"That is why i am asking you. I want some safe stuff. "
Guy gives recommendation
one thing leads to another and his train of thought about how "he has fucked up big time and no one could stop him from getting addicted and his life as well might be over."
is interrupted by a literal train and his life indeed does get over at this point.
His second last thought is
"well atleast i can confirm that there are two states existence and non existence. I knew i existed and after dying i would know that i do not exist"
His last thought is
"SHINE SHIEN SHshine shien hiseine shien"
(because this novel is biologically accurate and people don't have coherent last thoughts)
He is then ressurected by a worm god a trillion years later who got very infaturated with his left leg after it bend in just the right way after being run over by the train.
Humanity got hit by a asteroid and global warming at the same time but then recovered by the power "Lots of sex."
as said by worm god.
but eventually
Humanity went extinct because people stopped having sex for spiritual fulfillment reasons. "Just no point in having babies when i can follow my passion and live a fulfilling life" was the realization reached by 80% of the populace.
I am never going to publish it cause it would lead lot of editing and most of plot has to yet be thought up.