BlackKnightX
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When my OCD phase kicks in, I find myself reading the same sentences or words many times over. Not because I don't understand them or can't comprehend them, but apparently I feel like I haven't grasped and analyzed all of their meanings, yet.
It happens when I'm watching movies as well. Oftentimes, I have to rewind and replay the same shot or scene over and over again to fully comprehend every little detail: the lighting, the scene composition, the actors' expressions. That last bit makes me admire a lot of truly talented actors, as I can see their acting talent from the way their expressions and body language show.
I'm very analytical with everything, although I'm trying real hard to just chill and don't think anything. And it works. I find myself becoming more and more spontaneous and intuitive. But even then, my brain still works on its own to analyze everything around me and send me the informations in the form of a feeling or a hunch. I can read people like an open book and even has some Sherlock Holmes moment where I guess a lot of things right after meeting someone for the first time. This helps me a great deal in a social interaction. I feel like a conversationist god. I can adapt to any situation and even thrive in it.
All these seem amazing at first, but as I'm sure a lot of you may have guessed, it's so goddamned exhausting.
Let's bring it back to reading. Just imagine having to fully comprehend every little details of every sentence. Not only that, but I have to turn every little thing into pictures in my mind as well. It's an amazing experience, for sure, but after an extended amount of time, comes out very exhausting. Every book I read feel like a chore after a while, no matter how amazing it is.
It doesn't happen all the time, though. Usually after I wake up in the morning and strat reading, it's a smooth ride, but a few hours or so later, it turns into quite a slog. Any of you have the same experience? How do you overcome it?
It happens when I'm watching movies as well. Oftentimes, I have to rewind and replay the same shot or scene over and over again to fully comprehend every little detail: the lighting, the scene composition, the actors' expressions. That last bit makes me admire a lot of truly talented actors, as I can see their acting talent from the way their expressions and body language show.
I'm very analytical with everything, although I'm trying real hard to just chill and don't think anything. And it works. I find myself becoming more and more spontaneous and intuitive. But even then, my brain still works on its own to analyze everything around me and send me the informations in the form of a feeling or a hunch. I can read people like an open book and even has some Sherlock Holmes moment where I guess a lot of things right after meeting someone for the first time. This helps me a great deal in a social interaction. I feel like a conversationist god. I can adapt to any situation and even thrive in it.
All these seem amazing at first, but as I'm sure a lot of you may have guessed, it's so goddamned exhausting.
Let's bring it back to reading. Just imagine having to fully comprehend every little details of every sentence. Not only that, but I have to turn every little thing into pictures in my mind as well. It's an amazing experience, for sure, but after an extended amount of time, comes out very exhausting. Every book I read feel like a chore after a while, no matter how amazing it is.
It doesn't happen all the time, though. Usually after I wake up in the morning and strat reading, it's a smooth ride, but a few hours or so later, it turns into quite a slog. Any of you have the same experience? How do you overcome it?
