That's a very long winded answer that will take time to explain, and if you follow along, you'll get that answer eventually. But to put it simply, I just want to be myself. Yes, I know this is controversial, I'm feeling the burden of it now that I am being open about it, yet at the same time, I'm being bombarded with all this talk about being yourself, diversity, acceptance, blah blah blah. At the time I told that person in private about who I was, someone made a comment about loli art and they said "f**k lolicons". I felt offended by that so I confided in a person I trust about it. I wanted to let them know that not everyone who is a lolicon is a creep or stalks children. I even said I don't believe a child and a adult can be in a relationship and I'm making sure my stories do not support that. But even with that, I was discarded by them. This is making me very angry, very confused, very anxious. That's why I'm not doing that anymore, keeping it a secret. I'm sick and tired of it, and that's why I'm open about it now.
And I'm sure by now you want to mention professional help. Yes, that is something I will be seeking. I do need the assistance of a professional to help me with this journey I'm starting with. My hope is that by seeking professional assistance, I can educate not just myself, but everyone else. I truly, strongly believe, this needs to be talked about more so than ever.
Yup, pretty much.